A Penguin's Diary

Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 11:24 pm Post subject: A Penguin's Diary

~~ A Penguin's Diary ~~*~~*~**
//Started Sat Apr 14, 2007 11:24 pm
/// CONTENTS ///

Page 1 [http://forum.myktm.com/about10025-0.html]
1. She's Just a Friend
2. She is a sweet nuisance... (poem)
3. Wishing for a God
4. Turn to Stone
5. My starting-to-feel-good Feeling

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Page 3 [http://forum.myktm.com/about10025-0-asc-30.html]
6. She's Just a Friend (Aros Comic Strip)
7. What is Love? (Aros Comic Strip)
8. RADiATiON Alert >> Negative Energy
9. On a Boat With No Oars (Poem)

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10. The Sound of Tap Dancing
11. Vege Pakodas (with Aros Comic Strip)
12. Immortal Love: The Warm Summer Breeze (Story)
13. The Brave Crow (of Sparta)
14. Writer's Block (Calvin n Hobbes (CnH) Comic Strip)

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15. Have You Healed Dear?
16. Never Lose Self-Respect
17. The Microbus Ride (part I: preoccupied)
18. The Microbus Ride (part II: i meet her again)
19. The Microbus Ride (part III: i tell my story)
20. Thank You (Poem)
21. The Microbus Ride (part IV: sh**)

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22. The Secret (Poem by John Clare)
23. Sneaking up from behind
24. A Different Kind of Love (Poem)

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25. Experiment with Spontaneity (version 1)
26. Experiment with Spontaneity (version 2)
27. It was Aros Ant
28. Out of the frying pan and into the fire
29. A Mean Romance
30. Unrequited Love (poem)
31. Oye Life! Throw in all you got... (poem)

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32. Life in a Microbus
33. CnH (2)
34. Innocent (nobody's guilty) (poem)

Page 9 [http://forum.myktm.com/about10025-0-asc-120.html]
35. Everloving (poem)
36. A Summer Evening
37. I only remember that i once felt love... (poem)
38. TV
39. The 'Innocent' Stalker (Short Story)
40. Pissed Off

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41. Life is a Struggle (poem)
42. I Saw Love Die (poem)
43. CnH (2)
44. Indecisive (poem)

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45. The Barbershop
46. Urbanization (poem)
47. Mosquito
48. Kickin' Crow's Ass
49. The Hillside Blues (poem)
50. She's Not Fair to Outward View (poem) by Hartley Coleridge
51. The power of love (poem) by Herbert Shipman

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52. A sparrow sits on my window... (poem??)
53. Feelings are like rocks... (poem)
54. CHAPTER 1 - Birdie's Problemos
55. CHAPTER 2 - Parrot lists problemos
56. Harry Blackmail
57. Wander-Thirst (poem) by Gerald Gould

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58. Experiment (poem) by Cole Porter
59. a couple of quotations about love, pain,...
60. I Saw an Angel Today, Rwelly (poem)

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61. Snippet from 'Disdain Returned' by Thomas Carew
62. Beginning Philosophy (excerpt from "Understanding Philosopy" by James K. Feibleman)
63. He slept beneath the moon... by J. Albery
64. Writing...it's all about evoking feelings actually!

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65. Not Mutual (poem)
66. on my priority list...
67. note to myself
68. A Way of Life (poem)
69. My STuPiD Principles for Living Happily

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70. My STuPiD Principles for Living Happily v2
71. Intimates (poem) by D. H. Lawrence
72. Springtime Confession (solution for de Shy-Guy Disorder)
73. Springtime Confession Resources (Postcard)
74. The penguin looks at the heap of books...
75. CnH (2)

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76. Aspenglow (lyrics) by John Denver
77. CnH (5)
78. Looking for Space (lyrics) by John Denver
79. Sweet Surrender (lyrics) by John Denver

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80. A Penguin's Diary (naming explained Wink

) + few photos of aurora
81. Stupid Stupid Words (poem)
82. CnH (2)
83. Love (poem)
84. Lost (poem)
85. ('Boys Love Home Repair' series...) Part I: The Rice Cooker Mechanic

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86. ~*~ A Random Walk - Part I ~*~ + CnH(3)
87. Nuwakot(Photo) 'n' Friendship Day Postcard
88. CnH (16!)
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--- She's Just A Friend ---

He couldn't think. And he definitely couldn't study. She had messed up his mind yet again. He knew that she didn't do it on purpose. She was just being friendly. But he thought too much and always ended up feeling miserable, helpless and heartbroken. Yeah! he still loved her, but now, he DIDN'T want her love in return. It was too late for that. He had changed. There was a time when he would have done anything for her. But not today. His heart had died, at least that was what he liked to believe. And as the sun climbed up the sky he didn't know what to do. The songs only made him more and more miserable. But he kept on listening, kept singing. He wanted to go somewhere, do something, but his heart had become too volatile. Day turned to evening and evening turned to night. And as he lay down on the bed that night he tried to shrug off every memories that troubled him. He just wanted to be strong, live life his way. He hoped that somehow tomorrow would be different...she is just a friend.

[ ED: last line edited. originally "she was just a friend" ]

Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2007 7:25 am Post subject:

Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2007 7:56 am Post subject:

i think he's still friends with her..my mistake, sorry.....but it sounds good with a 'was'..should i edit that??..ok i'll edit that......i hope i didn't give you a fright though..LOL

Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 8:52 am Post subject:

Fright? Course' not. I was just surprised. Just Surprised, dahling! Wink

Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 9:30 am Post subject:

Nice write-up btw. but if I have to argue, I would say that his heart hasn't died. He just wants it that way to move on..but I guess, I wouldn't know any better.

and also, Would be nice if you post a follow-up to this article.
Thankyou.

Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 7:43 pm Post subject:

Make me suffer, make me cry....and you'll have more follow-up posts! Wink

Posted: Thu Apr 19, 2007 2:04 pm Post subject:

Am I an inspiration or a nuisance? You Decide! Very Happy

Posted: Thu Apr 19, 2007 11:31 pm Post subject:

She is a sweet nuisance,
a proud defying little kitten.

And like the song of the myriad stars
on a black moonless night,
she inspires.

Posted: Sun Apr 29, 2007 1:26 am Post subject:

[AUTHOR'S WARNING to you..not you, YOU: This entry is part real and mostly fiction...so nothing serious]

--- Wishing for a God ---

There are so many things he would like to tell her, but he cannot. After all she's just a friend. So he keeps it to himself, like always. It hurts for a while, but it will soon go away. He's been doing it ever since he can remember. It doesn't matter to him anymore whether she knows how he really feels or not. He always acts the way the he thinks she would like him to act. Every day that passes by, he turns more and more reluctant to speak what he feels. He consoles himself with the fact that at least he knows who he really is and what he really feels.

His heart always wanted to say something, but he always ended up saying something else. And that something else which came out of his mouth never made sense to him..it was not what he wanted to say...it was not how he felt at all.

He said something else today as well. In fact, he couldn't say much at all... He couldn't say what he really wanted to say. And it hurt him like every other day. But today, however hard he tried, the pain did not go away. He needed someone to know how he really felt and about how he really wanted to act. He just needed to be himself with someone. He had been an Atheist all his life. But today, he wished there was a God who knew how he really felt, down to each and every detail. He wanted someone to know who he really was.......

Posted: Sun Apr 29, 2007 9:51 pm Post subject:

i don't know why! Confused

But it feels like u are telling ur own story, is it?
are u telling ur life experience?

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2007 12:29 am Post subject:

@Outrage: maybe.....

[AUTHOR'S WARNING to you..not you, YOU: This is 99% fiction...so plz do not think too much about it...]

--- Turn To Stone ---

...but he knew there was no god. There was no one he could share his real feelings with. He felt it again, a cold wrench like grip squeezing his heart. With time he had learnt to enjoy the feeling, but tonight was different. He could take it no more. He felt as if his heart would explode.

He went to the roof. There was a storm coming. He could see rows of tall trees shiloutted against the moonlight swaying violently in the wind. The wind felt too cold....He sat down on the cold cemented floor. Not knowing what to do, he looked up at the moon. Moonlight always healed him, but it didn't seem to have any effect tonight. This ever-recurring pain was affecting his life. He had begun to sit for endless hours staring at nothing, doing nothing, all the time trying to enjoy the pain. And his exam was fast approaching, but he just couldn't concentrate.

'If feelings are the roots of all the pain, why have feelings at all? Why not turn to stone? Then you will have no more feelings to trouble you. And you will no longer have the longing to tell her how you still feel about her. But she doesn't need to know. She doesn't need to know at all. I just want to live.'

Turn to stone and you will live, he said to himself. Yeah! that was what he was going to do. No feelings no pain, he thought again. He got up. A strong gust of cold wind hit him. It felt warm....

[written while on the roof one stormy night as the tall dark trees swayed violently in the wind]

(Here's a related poem http://forum.myktm.com/viewtopic.php?p=351633)

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2007 12:50 am Post subject:

It's just that many people keep there feeling within there heart not even giving it a chance.
Just on that thought i thought may be u have felt that too. That's all.
But the post is good very touchy. Keep it up.

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2007 7:27 am Post subject:

Thank you outrage....
...now let me clarify one thing....this is not my story....i just have one hell of an imagination!

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2007 9:53 am Post subject:

nicely written.. hope to read more!!!

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2007 7:35 pm Post subject:

--- My starting-to-feel-good feeling ---

I was watching a movie the other day. There was a lady in it. She calls this guy and starts crying over the phone. The guy doesn't speak much. "Say something....anything at all", asks the lady, still crying. The guy says that he doesn't know what to say. Then I go, "Ah! finally a guy other than me who doesn't know what to say when the moment arrives"...and just as I'm starting to feel good about myself, the guy starts talking and how...When he stops talking, the lady is smiling, sad but smiling. Lady says thank you and hangs up....*bleep* *bleep* and a *BLEEP*...so long for my starting-to-feel-good feeling.

The funny thing is, the picture quality was bad..some problem with the tv tuner...When I see the picture, i hear no sound. I experiment with the frequency a little...now i hear the sound, but i see no picture.....I watched the movie that way for about an hour before finally deciding that i was hungry....i made coffee.

[Here's another post about a lil mewing kitten http://forum.myktm.com/viewtopic.php?p=351678]